Well, I abandoned (and eventually deleted) my old WP account to start this new account and blog, which was supposed to be just a private place for me to keep track of my health and fitness journey. Made a handful of posts, deleted most of them, and basically abandoned the site because who has time for health when the world is ending?
The world still seems like its ending, but in a much different way than the pandemic would have had us believe. In the last week, right as the world began its slow start to functionality again, a justified rage has swept America with the murder of George Floyd at the hands of a Minneapolis police officer. Peaceful protests are being met with extreme police force and have quickly devolved into riots, looting, and destruction. It’s a grim reminder that there is still work to be done and I’m not dead yet, so I need to step my game back up so I’m able to do what I can to help.
So, here are my revised goals for getting back on track for the remainder of 2020:
Goal One: Cut Out Sugar… Again
The struggle with quarantine was that finding fresh foods became nigh-impossible. The only things we could get were highly processed snack foods filled with sugar. All my hard work, the conditioning I’d done since December, gone with a box a Ho-Hos.
This will likely be the hardest thing to do, because we still have so many sugary snacks in the apartment. Last time, I had to box everything up and put it out of sight. I don’t think my mother would go for that a second time, so I just need to exercise restraint and will power. I’ve done it before, I can do it again! Right?
Goal Two: Drink More Water
This is such a basic “health goals 101” task that I debated not even listing it. But, honestly, my hydration habits have really faltered during the pandemic. Since I’m not outside in the sun as much, I don’t think about the fact that I need to drink more water. Sunshine = potential heat stroke = very diligent water intake. Indoors = air conditioning = “oops, I only drank one glass of water today!”
Goal Three: Break Out That Exercise Bike
Although technically parks and hiking trails have opened up, giving me a safe place to get my steps in (my neighborhood not a very safe place to get my steps in), getting to them is still difficult because I’m so far away. Many parking lots are not open, or only open to half capacity, and the transit system is discouraging nonessential riders. It’s going to be a while before I can get back outside, so I need to find something to get my blood pumping in the meantime.
Which makes me glad I didn’t get rid of that folding stationary bike my mother got me ages ago. It’s been collecting dust in the corner for about two years now (and was only used sporadically in the years before that), and I constantly told myself I needed to get rid of it. Well, who’s laughing now, past-me?
Goal Four: Stay Up-To-Date with My Gratitude Journal
My therapist suggested I start a gratitude journal to remind myself of the positive things in the wake of this isolation nightmare. She didn’t know, but I actually started a gratitude journal at the beginning of the year… but it hardly counts because I stopped writing in it regularly in February. I’ve picked it back up and I’d like to get in the habit of doing it daily (right now I only remember it about once every three days). It does seem to help keep the depression monster at bay, at least a little bit.
Those are the only goals I’m going to be focusing on from June moving forward. I may reassess them again and add more as things change, but I wanted small, specific, tangible goals that I could accomplish. The goals I set for myself in January, while still things I want to achieve, are too large and vague for me to feel motivated towards right now. When I look at the goal “lower my blood pressure,” it seems overwhelming. But hopping on the stationary bike three times a week? I can do that and it will still help me towards that overall blood pressure goal.
Baby steps and all that.
Ah, perhaps you’re asking why I’ve gone back to public blogging, after the spectacle I made by leaving the blogging world and even deleting my old WordPress account where everyone followed me and I followed everyone? I’ll give a full explanation in due time, but for now here are the basics:
- Blogging, even in an unstructured sense, is a good outlet for me. Since I stopped blogging, I’ve felt a disconnect that I haven’t been able to shake.
- This blog is primarily focused on my health goals/journey. Keeping up a blog helps me hold myself accountable. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯