Weekly Check-In: What a rough week.

I am exhausted, both physically and mentally. It has gotten to the point that I’ve decided to take a step back from Twitter and Facebook over the upcoming week. I want to be a voice in regards to all that’s happening in the world, but keeping myself sane is important too.

In the meantime, let’s take a look at how I’m doing with my goals. The overall consensus is… not good!

Cutting Out Sugar

I didn’t do very well this week. I did eat less sugar than normal, but there were a couple slip-ups.

I waved off the sugar in some things because, “Well, it’s mostly good stuff.” Which normally I wouldn’t have a problem with (most things are fine in moderation, after all), but since I’m such a virulent sugar addict and I’m trying to detox at the moment, even the sugar in teriyaki sauce is more than I should be eating until I get a better handle on my intakes.

I also used visiting my dad as an excuse to indulge in a really sugary treat. “It’s a special occasion,” I said when my boyfriend side-eyed the heck out of me. We split the brownie sundae, but still.

And then a bunch of not great stuff happened, like my laptop battery swelling and pushing the screen out, and nowhere near me accepting e-waste, and now I just have this lithium-ion time bomb in a covered roasting pan in my bathtub (since that’s the least flammable location in the apartment in case it explodes, as LI-ion batteries are wont to do when damaged)… so I just said screw it, ate a bunch of Oreos, and I’ll try again next week.

Moving gif of a silver and black laptop sitting on concrete against a blue background. There is a small fire on the keyboard of the laptop which rapidly expands to a large fire.
I’m just waiting for this to happen in the middle of the night. Via Giphy

So… I’ll try again next week.

Drink More Water

I failed at this so hard it’s laughable. I just forget to drink water, because I very rarely actually feel thirsty.

For years, I’ve heard that you only need to drink water if you’re thirsty. But I almost never feel thirsty. Even when I get symptoms of dehydration (dry lips, dry skin, headaches), I still don’t feel thirsty.

I guess I’ll need to download one of those reminder apps and put myself on a water intake schedule.

Use the Stationary Bike

At least I have a valid excuse for this one. Pretty much since the beginning of the pandemic, I’ve been KonMari-ing my bedroom. For anyone who’s spent the last five years under a rock, the KonMari method is an intense method of decluttering that involves pulling out all your stuff (all of it) and going through it item-by-item to decide if it “sparks joy.”

It is extremely time consuming and difficult to do in small spaces. I haven’t seen my bedroom floor in twelve weeks.

There’s literally nowhere for me to set up the stationary bike. I’m hoping to clear a space for it by next week (because I do not want to start my summer semester with my room looking like a warzone).

A moving gif of a blonde woman on a stationary bike. She is pedaling very fast. As the camera cuts to a close-up of her face, she turns to look towards, but not at, the camera with a tense expression.
How I expect to study over the summer. Just park in front of my Zoom meeting and go ham. Via Giphy

Gratitude Journaling

The great irony of this goal is that during the times when I most need to remind myself of the things I have to be grateful for, I feel the least motivated to write about them. It’s hard to find the silver lining in these nightmare storm clouds.

I’ll catch up tonight.

So, yea, not a great first week back on the wagon, but I’m sure I’ll get there. These are stressful times and I slipped back hard in March. It took time to get to where I was before, so I can’t expect to be back to normal in a week.

2 comments

  1. Adie, a time bomb in my tub would send me to grab a few Oreos too! So how did that turn out? I was listening to some doctor on the radio who suggested expressive writing as a way to deal with stress and chronic pain. He said that you write all of your negative thoughts down on a daily basis. The catch, though, is that you tear up those pages every time you write them. You don’t want to dwell on those thoughts or re-read them, you just want to get them out of your system. I may give that a shot. I wonder if that would keep me from stress eating? Anyway, what’s your thoughts? Mona

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    • I took the potentially explosive laptop to an e-waste drop-off I finally managed to locate near the La Jolla area of San Diego. I’m kind of wishing I had just stuck it in the freezer until the Microsoft store reopened, because a replacement would have been better and after consideration it probably wouldn’t have just exploded out of nowhere, because it wasn’t plugged into a power source and the charge would have just slowly drained out of it. As long as I didn’t turn it on, plug it in, or, ya know, chuck it against the wall or something, it probably would have been fine. But I also didn’t have room in my freezer and didn’t want to take the risk.
      It also occurs to me that without context sticking it in the freezer seems REALLY WEIRD, so allow me to elaborate: The cold from the freezer will slow the expansion of the gas that leads to combustion and stave off the rupturing of the battery. That would have bought me some time until I could get it to Microsoft.
      There are spells similar to what you’re talking about re: using writing as stress and pain management. I’ve done similar rituals in the past and I’ve found them helpful, but they need to be repeated. It’s definitely not a one-and-done. I’ve also never tried it for relieving chronic pain. But, stress relief could definitely help prevent stress eating!

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