I am exhausted, both physically and mentally. It has gotten to the point that I’ve decided to take a step back from Twitter and Facebook over the upcoming week. I want to be a voice in regards to all that’s happening in the world, but keeping myself sane is important too.
In the meantime, let’s take a look at how I’m doing with my goals. The overall consensus is… not good!
Cutting Out Sugar
I didn’t do very well this week. I did eat less sugar than normal, but there were a couple slip-ups.
I waved off the sugar in some things because, “Well, it’s mostly good stuff.” Which normally I wouldn’t have a problem with (most things are fine in moderation, after all), but since I’m such a virulent sugar addict and I’m trying to detox at the moment, even the sugar in teriyaki sauce is more than I should be eating until I get a better handle on my intakes.
I also used visiting my dad as an excuse to indulge in a really sugary treat. “It’s a special occasion,” I said when my boyfriend side-eyed the heck out of me. We split the brownie sundae, but still.
And then a bunch of not great stuff happened, like my laptop battery swelling and pushing the screen out, and nowhere near me accepting e-waste, and now I just have this lithium-ion time bomb in a covered roasting pan in my bathtub (since that’s the least flammable location in the apartment in case it explodes, as LI-ion batteries are wont to do when damaged)… so I just said screw it, ate a bunch of Oreos, and I’ll try again next week.
So… I’ll try again next week.
Drink More Water
I failed at this so hard it’s laughable. I just forget to drink water, because I very rarely actually feel thirsty.
For years, I’ve heard that you only need to drink water if you’re thirsty. But I almost never feel thirsty. Even when I get symptoms of dehydration (dry lips, dry skin, headaches), I still don’t feel thirsty.
I guess I’ll need to download one of those reminder apps and put myself on a water intake schedule.
Use the Stationary Bike
At least I have a valid excuse for this one. Pretty much since the beginning of the pandemic, I’ve been KonMari-ing my bedroom. For anyone who’s spent the last five years under a rock, the KonMari method is an intense method of decluttering that involves pulling out all your stuff (all of it) and going through it item-by-item to decide if it “sparks joy.”
It is extremely time consuming and difficult to do in small spaces. I haven’t seen my bedroom floor in twelve weeks.
There’s literally nowhere for me to set up the stationary bike. I’m hoping to clear a space for it by next week (because I do not want to start my summer semester with my room looking like a warzone).
The great irony of this goal is that during the times when I most need to remind myself of the things I have to be grateful for, I feel the least motivated to write about them. It’s hard to find the silver lining in these nightmare storm clouds.
I’ll catch up tonight.
So, yea, not a great first week back on the wagon, but I’m sure I’ll get there. These are stressful times and I slipped back hard in March. It took time to get to where I was before, so I can’t expect to be back to normal in a week.